My journey and remembering of CSA #11: TUESDAY Force feeding & making sense & coming to terms
Original date of recording: 14th July 2020 This day.. Tuesday involved a lot of integration and trying to make sense of things, all the while freshly feeling the grief of the girls murder, and the strangeness and certainty of feeling her here again with me in spirit,...
My journey and remembering of CSA #10: MONDAY last breaking round two, The GIRL, Mind shatters
Original date of recording: 13th July 2020 GOD... I thought disclosing the MDMA treatment was BIG..... Jeezuz! This IS big to put out there into the world.... Men... Women.. The things that they did to me to ensure I never spoke out about this.... and I KNOW that they...

Do Paedophiles genuinely believe that their victim ‘wanted it’ or do they know its a lie?
EVERY abuser at their core, has a dark, parasitic, narc like energy. One of the characteristics of a narc/covert narc... Is to weave a false image which they project outward to camouflage themselves.... And the most effective lies are ones that the teller BELIEVES. Really abusers say things like, "the child wanted it/invited it" etc.... AS a way of on some level, justifying and excusing what they do - to themselves.... When really they are driven by their own inhuman, inverted and fucked up...

What is a strong argument for there being a ‘loving God’ with so much EVIL in the world?
Here is my answer. First and foremost, three of the greatest tricks the thing that we sometimes call the 'Devil' ever played are: That evil is part of the natural order of things. (Evil is OUTSIDE of the natural order of things, it is an abomination) That evil doesn't exist. (Evil exists and it does so VERY clearly, one must be BLIND to think otherwise) That evil is the opposite of good (The opposite of mad is still mad, GOOD is NOT mad, evil IS off the wall batshit crazy MAD, EVIL is the...