My journey and remembering of CSA #3: MDMA assisted therapy 2.1 (of 2.6)
Dear men and women,In this video there is the first 55 minutes of footage from my second MDMA journey/treatment. There will be 6 parts detailing the complete journey so you can see for yourself how it all unfolds. It has been rather…. draining and unsettling in ways -...
My journey and remembering of CSA #2: Somatic Episode 3 weeks after first MDMA treatment
Dear men and women, in this video I share more of my journey through the remembering through my body of my previously repressed trauma from #CSA and #ritualisticabuse This was about 3 weeks after the first treatment, and about 2 weeks after my melt down that had...
My journey and remembering of CSA #1: MDMA assisted therapy
Hello folks, in this video I will be discussing HOW I came to remember my extraordinary history of previously repressed abuse, through the help of MDMA assisted therapy. WARNING: In this video I use footage from my first treatment in which I was reliving being raped...
The boy and the wolf
The boy and the wolf sat down upon the rolling hills, the boy had hair golden white, lit by the setting suns rays, he had a cheeky smile, and an easy laugh. He was happy, he dreamed of soon sitting with his friends once again. In the dream, one of them asked him, why...
The man, the woman and the forest.
This happened long ago one afternoon, in a magical place hidden away, between two very ordinary towns.. The man and the woman, laid down upon welcoming grass, surrounded by trees of different sorts, as if watching over them both. They kissed, and talked, and desire...
*10 The dam/ the dark moon.
WARNING: Upsetting and unsettling content, read at your own risk.Please read *1-9 before reading this. So the other posts, to be honest haven't felt as if they took courage to post, although admittedly - afterwards I was often paralysed by anxiety… the posting itself...
*9 What re-experiencing trauma can look like
WARNING: Upsetting subject matter, read and engage with at your own risk. * IF you watch the video, I'd suggest reading the video description, it has time stamps among other things, be aware the volume jumps up in the re-experiencing section of the video - apologies...
*8 The threat, the practice of disassociation and how to respond as a support figure.
THE THREATLets assume for now, that as my critics may say, that I am doing all of this for attention, that I have made it up, or suffer from a confused or broken mind, that I am in need of medication – or even being locked up… Lets assume that my story is not true and...
*7 Coming out of the closet (not that closet)
(For further context on how I arrived here, please read #1-6) WARNING: upsetting/disturbing post. Read at your own risk! Well holy moley… Where to start with this one…. I guess I want to preframe that for THIS post: ALL is welcome. It was necessary in previous posts...
*6 Creation Myth
The Creator, like a golden sun, so immense and so beyond the capacity for the human mind to comprehend (he could only be felt), created everything in his realm, for it was his nature. He inhabited everything, he is the space between the molecules and atoms, he is...
