A tribute to ALL surivors who ARE heroes!
A tribute to those lost along the way
My tribute to the wolf within me – my oldest friend, who protected me through the darkest of hours
Personal blog
The Boy and the Wolf | 20 Apr, 2013
He was happy, he dreamed of soon sitting with his friends once again. In the dream, one of them asked him, why are you not playing like you used to? As if the friend had missed the Boy from before.. But the boy sat there, not needing to, happy and full, listening, watching his friends.. one of them said a kind thing to the Boy, and tears sprung to the Boys eyes as he felt love blossom within..
#1 Trauma and PTSD | 9 Jul, 2020
Regarding trauma and PTSD…. professionals will often quote figures ranging from 8-20% of the western population living with significant trauma/PTSD… (causes may range from assault/abuse/molestation/combat/accidents/difficult births/medical procedures/car crashes/perceived life threatening situations/etc…)
One could infer from that, that we live in a traumatised society!?
#2 The eye of the storm | 15 Jul, 2020
The eye of the storm
Swirls and buffs
Broken fragments of mind
Reform
Windows and doors are sealed
The building evacuated
To contain it
And keep other things out
#3 Trauma and it’s impression | Jul 17, 2020
I am learning many things about trauma these days, and I already considered myself pretty well educated on the topic. Both from theory, and from significant practice and experience. I am learning how incredibly deep, the imprint of a traumatic experience is stamped in...
#4 The River | Jul 22, 2020
For the last six or seven weeks, it is as if I have been in a river. This began as a door, long forcibly closed, and for good reason, opened half way… and thus I fell into a shallow, rocky stream. This shallow stream lasted for around five weeks, I intensely relived...
#5 The lake and the dam | Aug 2, 2020
So this IS a challenge, HOW to share some of what has happened in the last 8 days, when so much of it moves into uncharted terrain for so many, that will bump up against peoples level of understanding, that pushes against the systemic limitations of the culture in...
#6 Creation Myth | Aug 5, 2020
The Creator, like a golden sun, so immense and so beyond the capacity for the human mind to comprehend (He could only be felt), created everything in his realm, for it was his nature. He inhabited everything, he is the space between the molecules and atoms, he is...
#7 Coming out of the closet (not that closet) | Aug 8, 2020
(For further context on how I arrived here, please read #1-6 BEFORE reading this post) WARNING: upsetting/disturbing post. Read at your own risk! Well holy moley… Where to start with this one…. I guess I want to pre-frame that for THIS post: ALL is welcome. It was...
#8 The threat, the practice of disassociation and how to respond as a support figure | Aug 15, 2020
THE THREAT
Lets assume for now, that as my critics may say, that I am doing all of this for attention, that I have made it up, or suffer from a confused or broken mind, that I am in need of medication – or even being locked up… Lets assume that my story is not true and that I am some poor and confused soul…
Even with that being the case (should it be true) – I trust you CAN believe that children are at risk of grooming, sexual abuse, and in extreme cases torture?
#9 The dam/ the dark moon | Sep 9, 2020
WARNING: Upsetting and unsettling content, read at your own risk.Please read #1-8 before reading this. So the other posts, to be honest haven’t felt as if they took courage to post, although admittedly – afterwards I was often paralysed by anxiety… the posting itself...
Resources
Pedophiles know dissociation do you?
An excellent, horrifying yet essential article detailing how sophisticated pedophiles are able to intentionally invoke dissasociation in their victims. The only point I disagree on in the article is regarding Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA), SRA is unfortunately a real phenomena I am a survivor of such, please look at Anneke Lucas and Jon Wedger for more information.
https://thedirtiestsecret.blogspot.com/2008/08/pedophiles-know-dissociationdo-you.html
CSA survivors blog
This is an excellent blog covering most aspects of Childhood Sexual Abuse (CSA). Whether you are a survivor or someone trying to support a survivor, educating ourselves as deeply as we can pays dividends. It is such a complex and difficult topic; it really does help to be better informed, also this helps us be more aware of the issue and thus protect children better.
Healing from Trauma
Dr Peter Levine – author of ‘waking the tiger’ is an American psychotherapist and biophysicist, widely recognized as the inventor of Somatic Experiencing (SE). SE is a therapeutic approach that focuses on releasing physical tension and trauma stored in the body, helping individuals recover from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), chronic pain, and other trauma-related conditions.
“My experience has taught me that many of the currently popular approaches to healing trauma provide only temporary relief at best. Some cathartic methods that encourage intense emotional reliving of trauma may be harmful. I believe that in the long run, cathartic approaches create a dependency on continuing catharsis and encourage the emergence of so-called ‘false memories.’ Because of the nature of trauma, there is a good chance that the cathartic reliving of an experience can be traumatising rather than healing.”